It’s been a while since I felt like this, and I hate home. Home feels like a different world from where I’m living. The only thing that’s waiting for me is loneliness. I don’t like being at home, or rather I don’t like being home alone.
It’s true that everyone should be able to stand for themselves. I believe so too. Cause at the end of the day, the only one that’ll stay with you is yourself. I remember the days where I’m okay being alone at home. I always spent my time on the balcony staring at the moon. I remember how I didn’t feel lonely at that time. But somehow tonight it couldn’t feel the same.
Time passes, and I have to get used to it. Like it or not, people come, people go. You’ll suffer. It’s not always fun to be alone. But memories will stay. Beside you. With you. That’s why I’m always thankful and grateful for everything that I’ve learned, that I’ve experienced during those moments where I’m not alone.
I’ll cope with it. I’ll be okay someday. So let’s just celebrate! Cause why not? Let’s celebrate, that one day, we’ll be a better version of ourselves. Let’s just celebrate the future, even though it’s not here yet.
I’ll be fine during repetitive days, when I’m alone by myself, waking up with no notifications. I just gotta accept everything that happened, and let time do it’s thing.
I’ll celebrate us even if it’s hard to do it alone. With my own thoughts, while the memories still last, back to staring at the moon from afar.
I love you, and I’ll still be for a long time, dear Ms. Moon.
